I had a dream
a bad bad dream
I was in a rush ,
and i kept falling,
i was trapped inside of a small box
and i just fell and fell
I was struggling to breathe
there was no air
but my pain woke me up.

finally we went iceskating.
i was so happy.
but i fell so many times.
i cant walk on one of my legs
and my ankles hurt
my one arm is kinda broken hehe
its just pretty damn fucking damn painful.
but im a strong girl i will be fine.
he only fell once D
im so damn happy about him ,
i dont know how i will work tomorrow
with my leg like this..
and hands like that
but
i will make it somehow.


somehow

i hope.

The page is blank,
where to start from.
S
Dont blurr my water.

 I will make sure my life
wont be just another dream filled with dreams.
It will all be reality .
Become reality.

And about another matter ,





I suppose the bloodhounds are watching and securing that
the pigs would stay safe be out of harm,
but thn again , pigs will get eaten in the end.

My nose could bleed
but its not bleeding
My heart could skip a beat 
but its beating as hard as it can
My smiles could be counted
as that is said
i could not be afforded to smile no more
but in the end
i wont count the coulds,
so i wave to rules , 
say foolish goodbyes
and smile 
as if there was nothing 
but laughter on earth, .
and all that 
Just because I CAN

My life.
My dreams.
My silent unimportant screams.

I dont have to like what i see
cause its just me against the world.
but im never alone
cause he loves me
he will stand by my side
or so i think 
beleve and hope,

I want to go to the other side of the bridge,
you know 
once you stop breathing 
and you feel like your dead,
but you still see this light
no questions asked.

cause you know whats worth your while.

Im in love with my monsters
and with the demons
as my angels play guitars 
and challenge the life.
Far from the tears and devils will bring.
a little assumptions 
and mostly harsh truth.