Damn.

I dont have time to play stupid anymore.

I dont know how am i supposed to end this tho.

Cause i dont really want to.

Its not a game afterall.

In the end I cant be the person your looking for.

I cant be someone else.

Its not that i dont love you.

Its cause i do.

And im damn scared of it.

Thats prolly why

at some point

I will do something stupid

to make you leave me

cause im far too weak to walk out on my own.

Cause im more scared of having feelings

thn the fuck called pain

Maybe im just not ment to live for the future.

I prolly have far forgotten how to just be happy even for a tiny moment,

and stop thinking about the things that dont even matter.

So i just think.

Until it kills me.

But thats just selfish.

Im sad and scared and I dont know what to do.

Maybe i will go away for a while.

So it would be as if i were never here.

Its not like i can make you forget tho.

What will i become thn.

Just part of the past i guess.

A lingering feeling of something

silently dissapearing.

Nothing.

What the hell am i even thinking.

Apparently it seems im overthinking ot not thinking at all.

I need to let go of the past.

I really do.

Cause therwise

I will lose everything dear to me

and i wont even notice.

Cause im to busy with whats gone.

Im Sorry.