We have been waiting for you.

In the end I already know,

not a drop of blood will be left in my heart

not a drop of happyness will be left in my veins

and there wont be nothing but emptyness

in my brain, in my mind.

I dont know if im where i should be,

i dont know if im even close to

where i want to be ,

i know im kinda far away

too damn far away of who i want to be.

At this moment i beleve i cant even say

im close to what i can be.

Def not close to what i could be.

All the misery, pain

and the tears that noone knows of

including the ones i myself cant

remember

they werent for no reason .

They have given me much more then

my words can ever say

you too should just wait and see

how i become much more

much much more then you ever imagined.

I might be damn too far away

and atm i might be standing still

but when i start moving on

i wont look back

and i wont hesitate

you nor anything else

wont be able to stop me .

This time i will express myself ,

in all the unlimited ways

and i will

do all the things the me in the past

tryed to lie transparent.

We all know, nothing is worse then giving up

and how can i say all this and be so sure of it?

If i cant even beleve in myself..

how can i expect others to ?

It all starts from me and ends with me ,

not exactly a closed circle but still

what else could we call it?

I just wanna come first.

In everything i cant but there still are things i can in.

Not for you not for anyone else

but for ME

cause we all know,

im worth so much more ,

worth all the things i used to

put aside,

all the things i have given to everyone else

but myself in this life.

I know that i might break down somewhere

on this way .

But just watch

sooner then you think

my head will rise,

the world full of broken glass

will be stronger and shine brighter then ever.

My head wont stay down ,

broken bones will heal in time.

And the scars i will make them fade away.

All the curses of this world

I shall break em apart.

All the things you cant beleve in

i will prove them to you .

And for everything i can, i will

find way trought all the defences

This world

its all in our heads

what we make of it , take of it.

our own choices.

And maybe i cant do anything alone, but IM NOT ALONE

I have the support of the most amazing people in the world.

Just dont give up.

just dont.

cause you dont have to.

never.

Dont let anyone take that from you.

And even if that were to happen,

you know where to find me.

I will give you everything back

if not much more.

Cause i can.