Self destruction.

I wish i had a button for it.

Smells like Suicide, Feels like destruction.

Why do I do this to myself?

I need somone to beat some sense itno my sensless self.

This ise going to destroy me.

This is going to destroy me.

Its going to destroy me.

its fucking going to destroy me.

Destroy me.

ITS FUCKING GOING TO.

I swear.     

My back hurts. 

My head hurts, 

and im drinking coffee.

But you know, 

im too tired to care.

Im tired of being who I am.

I tought it all was behind me already. 

I TOUGHT I WAS OVER IT ALL .

Now its all coming back.

All the things unsaid.

Those pictrues are rampaging inside my head.

NOT AGAIN,

just please,

no...

The snow, was really pretty 

when the train, 

with its one eye, 

made it seem 

as if it was alive 

for a moment there.

I dont understand anything anymore.

I just dont.

I'm just tired of being everyones toy.

I'm tired . 

Just SO FUCKING tired,

I just dont understand myself,

But humans are complicated to begin with,

They cheat on you.

They hate it when you get mad, 

when you dont get mad

they just think you dont really care about em.

They ..

Well what is there that they wouldnt.

I need rain, 

To wash my pain away.