50 things I must.

1. I must stop drinking this much.
2. I must stop wasting my money on pointless things.
3. I must stop crying all the time.
4. I must get my tattoos done. 
5. I must get my pretty hurr back.
6. I must get my piercings done.
7. I must renew my warderobe.
8. I must redo my room.
9. I must sew me a dress.
10. I must buy me more stockings,
11. I must buy me more hot highheeles.
12. I must model for people.
13. I must smile more.
14. I must dance in the rain. 
15. I must finish my list with Bairoh.
16. I must stop pretending.
17. I must stop holding back.
18. I must work harder.
19. I must go back to school.
20. I must start drawing again.
21. I must read all the books in our house.
22. I must treasure my life.
23. I must meet new people.
24. I must start wearing earrings.
25. I must get me a tunnel.
26. I must get along with my family.
27. I must treaaure it, that i have one.
28. I must show my friends i care.
29. I must be more picky about people i get close to.
30. I must let go of the past.
31. I must write a book.
32. I must become a pattissiere
33. I must learn to sew properly.
34. I must become a jewelery designer.
35. I must take risks.
36. I must visit my friends in USA.
37. I must go to Australia.
38. I must go to Africa as a volunteer.
39. I must stop seeking forgiveness.
40. I must stop pretending i dont care. 
41. I must not care about unimportant things. 
42. I must know whats unimportant to me.
43. I must stop dragging shit along. 
44. I must have hope.
45. I must not let myself down.
46. I must learn to forgive myself.
47. I must make a boquette out of pearls.
48. I must make a doll.
49. I must become a designer.

Thats it. Now imma keep waiting for the rain so i could dance in it.
Imma wait for thunder.
to get struck by lightnin.

Its a new day,
An even tho my whole body hurts and is sore.
I think, its good.
Yeah, today is a nice day.