Back then you held me
and i know the reason,
It was neither love nor lust.
Having sex again and again, I
felt like my body was under control
without any paticular meaning.

At that point I was already used to meaningless sex,
so I didnt care.
I just didnt care.

But then again, That was ages ago.
Now people are working hard Holdin emselves back ,
Cause I always talk about how much I hate it.
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You are really nice, Its just an act ,
you will still betray me in the end,
Why not just to abandon me now?

Abandon me.

Then i calmed down.
I know Its not true.

Im just dimwitted , I hurt myself before others can.
Maybe I used Sex to hurtmyself too,
thats why ,
It ended up like this.
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