Im wishing my life away, with all these things i leave unsaid.

Its over.

I will get there, so close to my own personal perfection
that i can touch it with my fingertips, just to let it slip away.
Just like someday, you will slip away.
I will let you take me to the tops of the highest mountains
Fingers in the clouds,
I will let you carry me to the depths of the oceans,
being blinded by nothing but you.

If someday I fell in love with you,
Would you mind?
I dont know.
Maybe I should turn my back and run.
But I dont want to.
Really, I dont want to.

Cause you know.
For a moment you melted me,
For a moment I felt safe with you,
For a moment I was overwhelmed by your warmness.

But it all was for a moment.
Then i let fear take over.

Silly me.

Now I ,
I dont even know what It is that Im doing.

If having you means giving you up at the same time,
Then id rather spend one billion forevers all alone.
Its a lie.


I wonder , how many people will read this and wonder if its about them
but you know,
Noone will ask.
They will all keep wondering,
just as i will keep seeking the anwsers on my own.

Dreams they grow, they die
Lets make ours come true.

Im sick of pretending.
I dont even know why I do it.
Everyone knows im doing it.
noone really minds.
Noone really cares,
I dont either.
I do ,
I dont,
I dont know.
I dont want to know.



I will tell you everything, everything.
You just have to ask.

I dont need my one thousand masks anymore.
I dont have to be a liar.
I dont have to tell myself things that aint so.
I dont have to ,
I dont have to.
And Yea ,
you know
I care ,
I do.
It hurts.