Past.

http://sannusuicidal.blogspot.com/2010/09/penguins-pink-eggs-with-black-ribbons.html
http://sannusuicidal.blogspot.com/2010/08/your-cock-is-so-small-that-it-cant-even.html
http://sannusuicidal.blogspot.com/2010/08/so-yesterday-when-i-was-staring-out-of.html

"you might be like an open book,

but im not really interested in reading you.
Standing on the edge, I still have the edge.
Blades cant hurt me, your words, they never reached me.
Its all meaningless,
But, im not out of reach, im just hiding in the shadows.
You cant do a thing, since you cant see in the dark."

 

"Im not a bookworm,

But i will eat up everything you say.

Sometimes, its more important

to be able to move on after crashing down,

 to build everything up from the start."

http://sannusuicidal.blogspot.com/2010/08/i-come-from-hell-i-dont-come-alone.html

Its the best damn heart anyone could have wished for.

And its still thumping harder that yours

ever could.

For you.

For me.

For the worthless world that still,

means the whole of my life to me.

The scars might remain and i might fall apart.

But you still will be waiting.

You wont leave my side.

And, i love you more than words can say.

I wish,

could I stay alive forever with you?

 

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But you, you make the emptyness in me

you make it ache

Thanks to you, being able to have so many emotions.

Im thankful.

Im alive

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When it comes to you .im like all the people i hate

my mind makes you perfect,

and even tho i prolly know all your flaws,

far better than my own,

before my eyes, they all just dissapear.

But you know I dont love you.

That selfish word,could never express me.

It would never make you understand,

and these feeling are worth much more.

I wouldnt cry for you, I wouldnt die,

but i will smile and keep living on.

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Its like walking into a dream ,

and you know somewhere behind one of the lifes corners

its secretly hiding

and like a murderer

it will take you to your slowest suicide.

And you will end where you began.

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How can i take away the very same hope that i gave?

I just dont have that kind of heart. Just dont.

But even so i do love you too.

But your just not the only one i love.

but then again

maybe you are its really hard to tell.

You dont love me,

you just want to catch the unreachable.

or whatt?

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Im so tired, of all your games.

Just so tired, as a dead man in its chest

after living 100 years.

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In the end I already know,

not a drop of blood will be left in my heart

not a drop of happyness will be left in my veins

and there wont be nothing but emptyness

in my brain, in my mind. 

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Just dont give up.

just dont.

cause you dont have to.

never.

Dont let anyone take that from you.

And even if that were to happen,

you know where to find me.

I will give you everything back

if not much more.

Cause i can. 

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All the toughts in my head

seem somewhere far away.

All the feelings ,

i dont think its even possible to feel more neutral

about everything.

Its as if i had none.

If it gets quiet..

i will know.

The storm, its on the way.

But all that, just doesnt matter.

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I have been waiting for you to say something,

to do something

but i guess, Things dont just happens as fast

as id like, with me standing still.

Cause i always have to do everything on my own.

Since i met you, i have been slightly

happier, cause the laughter that you give me

is too big to be put in just words.

I find it amazing to have met you. :] 

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Im like a kid, 

Dont become my toy.

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I have been hiding,been running, been crying, been smiling,

laughing, i have been fighting

and i have forgotten

so when things that reminded me of the forgotten

started to come up

i broke down.

but, its just that...

cats always fall on theyr feet ;) 

 

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So i think you should go and screw with the bitch

called "Life" for a while instead of trying to smother me

with aother bunch of bullshit.

Thanksalot.

With love "Suicide" 

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